Yes, it is about time I blow some dust off this thing and assemble an update for the masses…or just the two people who read this blog: Me and my Dad, haha. 
*Sigh*
I wonder sometimes why I’m still doing what I’m doing though….namely ICC 
Funny, everytime I think of that place I think nothing but responsibilties, jobs and pressure. Can’t remember the last time I really enjoyed myself there frankly. Everytime I try and think fun nothing comes to mind.
I’m probably burnt out badly here. But the term hasn’t even started for real yet! How am I going to handle a completely new course, finding somewhere to live, dealing with this bloody Mad Cow and still managing my church life?
I….I really want to go. Just go. Pack up and leave ICC, for at least a few months. Leave the ministries for a while, leave the church behind and focus on getting things assembled in my life, which are mostly on life-support.
But yet I still continue. But this is not healthy, and I’m facing a lot of pressure from my family to leave now. I mean, this isn’t anything new but now it’s even my mum and her side of the family who want me to leave.
And…I kinda agree with them. I am burnt out, and slowly becoming more and more cynical towards CCA as it chews up my time and patience.
I really would hate to become bitter to the church, and to the people inside.
This really isn’t a decision I need to make now, but it keeps going on in my head and until I address it’s not gonna go away sadly…
Bloody hell, I sound like an emo kid 
hey sheldon! i still read ur blog sometimes haha:P ooh you sound tired. do take a break if you need to/let your leaders know if you are tired out, and ask God to refresh you! church can be fun…it probably is all that amt of responsibility and serving that is taking a toil on you. take care!
By: june on March 13, 2010
at 12:07 am
hey Sheldon, i agree with what June says…i noe that it must be tiring to be involved in ministries all the time bt i wanna encourage u not to give up! there are definitely seasons of dryness in our lives but it doesn’t mean tt u have to bear all the burdens…if u truly feel tt being burnt out is a real concern, u can always opt to step down for a moment of refreshment from God. i believe that he wld want u to experience His love rgdless of what u do for Him! praying for yr strength to be in Him!
By: shunz on March 13, 2010
at 5:22 pm
Hey June and Shun Wei
Thanks for the encouragement, it really helped 
I guess I was just stressed from trying to get used to a new Uni and trying to manage CCA at the same time. I’ve asked to step down as a Sunday School teacher for the moment just so I can get things organised and my spiritual life back on track
There isn’t much point in running from my daemons, I need to face them head on and deal with them now. Running from ICC wasn’t going to solve anything, it probably would have made things worse. I realize that now, and thank goodness I didn’t make any stupid decisions I would have regretted.
Thanks for the support guys, I really appreciate it.
Hope things are great back in Singapore, miss you guys here in ICC, place still doesn’t feel right without you two there 
Look after yourselves, and God bless 
By: Montymilo on March 19, 2010
at 6:13 pm
hi Sheldon, that’s really good to hear. I’m glad u are making wise decisions. I miss u all too…So glad us ICC people can still keep in touch via internet:P
By: june on March 22, 2010
at 2:04 am